Maybe it's the way she was hungrily licking an empty gravy cup that was inside a box of what has been a Chickenjoy Meal (now empty of course). It saddens me, really. It also makes me guilty - sometimes I complain about the food I eat, sometimes wasting it - while here's a woman, probably the same age as my mother, whose main course is the roadside trash.
I remember that I have a few bite-sized chocolate candies. I rifled through my bag... Only three pieces. Better than none. I approached the poor lady.
She was still licking her hands and the gravy cup, I said "Excuse me po,"
She looked up with unfocused eyes, and I handed her the candies and said "Gusto niyo po ng chocolates? (Do you want these candies?)".
And I would never forget this - her eyes lit up, like a child seeing a toy she likes, and she said "wooooow, salamat... (wow, thank you)" as she took the chocolates.
I smiled at her and walked again (because if I stay a few minutes more I will be late for work, and I have to pay the penalty again). I know that three pieces of candies won't change her life, it's nothing as compared to what other good samaritans share, but for me, it's a start. Something stirred inside my cold heart, and it may sound cheesy, but seeing the lady's face as she was inspecting her candies, and hearing her say "salamat" in such a way that you would think I gave her a million pesos - it made my day. It actually gave me goosebumps. I was smiling while I was walking, then I remembered, those candies will make her thirsty. I wish I brought a bottle of water. -_-
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I know I can't help everyone. I can't even help myself. But helping that lady felt so good, that deep inside, I know from this day on, I won't be as cold-hearted. I do help people more often than not, but I have grown disillusioned with our society, and mankind in fact, that I just shut off what I see around me. Maybe someday, I could be more useful, more worthy to society. Right now, all I could do is give bits and pieces of what I have to people who may need it, at the same time, be angry at our government and the 1% for obvious reasons.
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